The Board Meeting had come to an end.
Bob started to stand
up and jostled the table, spilling his coffee over his notes.
"How embarrassing. I am getting so clumsy in my old age."
Everyone had a good laugh, and soon we were all telling
stories of our most embarrassing moments. It came around to
Frank who sat quietly listening to the others. Someone said,
"Come on, Frank. Tell us your most embarrassing moment."
Frank began, "I grew up in San Pedro. My Dad was a
fisherman, and he loved the sea. He had his own boat, but it
was hard making a living on the sea. He worked hard and
would stay out until he caught enough to feed the family. Not
just enough for our family, but also for his Mom and Dad and
the other kids that were still at home." He looked at us and
said, "I wish you could have met my Dad. He was a big man,
and he was strong from pulling the nets and fighting the seas
for his catch. When you got close to him, he smelled like the
ocean. He would wear his old canvas, foul-weather coat and
his bib overalls. His rain hat would be pulled down over his
brow. No matter how much my Mother washed them, they
would still smell of the sea and of fish."
Frank's voice dropped a bit. "When the weather was bad he
would drive me to school. He had this old truck that he used
in his fishing business. That truck was older than he was. It
would wheeze and rattle down the road. You could hear it
coming for blocks. As he would drive toward the school, I
would shrink down into the seat hoping to disappear. Half the
time, he would slam to a stop and the old truck would belch a
cloud of smoke. He would pull right up in front, and it
seemed like everybody would be standing around and
watching. Then he would lean over and give me a big kiss on
the cheek and tell me to be a good boy. It was so embarrassing
for me. Here I was twelve years old, and my Dad would lean
over and kiss me good-bye!"
He paused and then went on, "I remember the day I decided I
was too old for a good-bye kiss. When we got to the school
and came to a stop, he had his usual big smile. He started to
lean toward me, but I put my hand up and said, 'No, Dad.' It
was the first time I had ever talked to him that way, and he
had this surprised look on his face.
I said, 'Dad, I'm too old for a good-bye kiss. I'm too old for any
kind of kiss.' My Dad looked at me for the longest time, and
his eyes started to tear up. I had never seen him cry. He
turned and looked out the windshield. 'You're right,' he said.
'You are a big boy....a man. I won't kiss you anymore."
Frank got a funny look on his face, and the tears began to well
up in his eyes. "It wasn't long after that when my Dad went to
sea and never came back. It was a day when most of the fleet
stayed in, but not Dad. He had a big family to feed. They
found his boat adrift with its nets half in and half out. He must
have gotten into a gale and was trying to save the nets and the
floats."
I looked at Frank and saw that tears were running down his
cheeks. Frank spoke again. "Guys, you don't know what I
would give to have my Dad give me just one more kiss on the
cheek....to feel his rough old face....to smell the ocean on
him....to feel his arm around my neck. I wish I had been a
man then. If I had been a man, I would never have told my
Dad I was too old for a good-bye kiss."